Good to be back...

It’s been more than a month now since a life changing decision was faced my way.
Soon after that, many events, revelations, heartaches and lies unveiled.
A long and dragging relationship was finally put to an end.
I wish I can say really nice things but after the betrayal of a partner falling in love with someone else while you are still together really leaves a sour taste.

I can just go on and on talking how much hurt I felt. I was miserable and inconsolable for weeks. But that’s over now.
Life goes on.

I realized that I’ve forgotten about myself thru those years. It’s time I finally give my attention and love to someone all worth it… ME!
The moment I decided to move on, I made an effort to give myself a little more edge. A little powder, a nice dress and an honest smile goes a long way.
And you know what, it feels really good.

After being miserable, years of being taken for granted and carrying tons of baggage that ain’t mine… Man, it feels good to be back to me!

As much as I’d like to give myself all the credit for getting over this dark phase of my life (that I wish never existed in the first place!), I owe a lot to my family, old friends and new friends who made me shine thru it all.

I must admit that after everything that happened to me, it is hard to love again. It is hard because you know that you’ll open yourself to be susceptible to that much pain again.Honestly, thoughts of playing around and other immature tricks played in my head. But seriously, I’m too old for that.
I know that deep inside of me, I want something for keeps… something I can call my own.

I was bothered when people tell me not to jump on the first person who comes along my way. I’m a hazard to people around me as I spell REBOUND from what I’ve been thru. In a short span of time, I’ve done a lot. I met new people, rekindled communication from people in my past, made my bed and choose who to be with.

No, I did not jump on the first person who came along. I did let him walk past me. A few others slipped my way, and then it came to a point that I have to clear the way.
Someone good came my way.
But I had to ask her to stay away to give space for someone better.

Yes, I did find someone who made my heart beat a happy tune. I guess it’s true when they say that things happen for a reason.
Now, I can be myself, love someone truly and be loved by someone who knows the real me but loves me for it.

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LIVING IT UP, April 5, 2008